Drawing by Grace
To the Reader:
I wrote this because I needed something like this myself when I discovered that my daughter, Grace, was cutting. I had heard about cutting on the news, but never paid attention to it; it wasn't an issue in my house.
The day of discovery and for years after, I read forums from parents and kids and all kinds of medical websites – but I never found a book written by a parent that described the initial discovery and day to day or month to month experience. I felt so incredibly alone – and reading someone else’s parental journey would have helped me so much. And - I was embarrassed. I did not want people to know what we were going through, so I did not talk about it in detail for a long while. And, bear in mind this was almost a full decade before mental health was openly talked about, and before words like triggered became mainstream.
I was part devastated, part sad, part sick at my stomach, part defeated.
My situation was also fraught with complications. I was re-married and navigating the lines among my last two of four children, two daughters, who were still in the home, my older two who were in college, and my husband and his kids, who were with us part of the time. He retained his own home in a city to be near his children; I retained my home where my youngest two children were.
You will see I've got Scripture at the beginning of each chapter. I wish I could tell you it is what sustained me during the entire time. The truth is that it is only in hindsight that I am able to see how various Scripture bore out our truth. I can now point to a specific time when things turned for the better, and I can tell you why.
Know that others have travelled this path – some with worse stories than mine, and some with stories probably just like yours.
Above all, do not walk in fear.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, the
the Lord, your God will be with you wherever you go.
Chapter One: The Trap Was Sprung